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Retired AF +10 years ago. Athlete most of my life. I am 5’2 and weighed 115 to 125 and always felt there was a fat girl trying to breakout. Competing in marathons and triathlon kept me fit, tired, hungry and depressed. Eight years ago I was running. I stopped at mile 11. I gave up running from the fat girl. I don’t know why, maybe I just stop caring. Well the fat girl caught up I never noticed the 20, 40, 60, 80, 100, 122lbs I gained. I gain a whole person.. The only proof from size 6 to size 22. was a family picture with a fat middle aged lady I had never seen or met (me). That was the first time I saw the person I was worried of becoming. The thing is, I liked her, she is funny, smart and happy. I love me some of me. The only thing is some of me was making the all of me very ill. Four years ago, I got serious and lost 37 pounds. I have kept it off tell recently when it inched up to 191. I learned it’s not willpower it’s choices.