Starting My 40s Right!

Hi, all! 
I'm Kat, in Southern California, and my weight has been a roller coaster over the past 10 years. In 2009, my mom died, and that was the kick in the pants I needed to get motivated. I lost 60 pounds and was a healthy weight for the first time in my life. However, I didn't do it the right way. There was a lot of undereating and packaged diet foods, nothing sustainable. I also didn't work on the mental stuff: body dysmorphia and hatred, low self-worth and self-esteem, etc. Needless to say, the minute I reached my goal weight, I went back to eating the way I was before, and packed the pounds back on. 

At the end of 2019, I had gained back the 60 pounds plus an additional 80. I was the heaviest I'd ever been, was having trouble sleeping, had joint pain, was pre-diabetic, and was drinking so much daily that it was physically affecting me. I went to an outpatient alcohol treatment program and a binge eating disorder program, and now here I am, trying to repair my relationship with food and my body. 

In less heavy news, I'm a queer plant mama, house attendant to one cranky old loveable cat, glitter is my favorite color, I dabble in crafts, am obsessed with anything music-related (including dancing, though I'm the most awkward dancer ever), am starting to get sucked back into trashy reality dating shows, love to learn new things through reading, and am a little obsessed with making my apartment gorgeous. I'd love to make new friends here!